“Much of the need I had to prove myself, to achieve, to provide, to protect, can be traced to my feelings about Jackie. But there must be something more, the “something” that makes one need to excel. Some may call it ambition. I can live with that. Some may call it insecurity, although that is such a boring, common label, like being called shy. that means little. But as I look back, it feels to me that my life has been one long audition-an attempt to make a difference and to be accepted.”
I find this paragraph in the prologue of Barbara Walter’s Book Audition very interesting. I have not gotten far into the book. I have heard it can be somewhat strong at times. I really cannot even tell you the exact reasons that I want to read this book. I know that I am deeply interested in the lives of women. I want to know them. I want to sit down and listen to their words. The ins and outs of their story intrigues me. I want to see and hear how God has intertwined himself in their lives. Even if they don’t see it. I am not saying that Barbara does not see it. I don’t know. I am only on the 4th chapter. Does any of this make sense?
Enough for now. My mind is going to burst with thoughts. All of which will make no sense.
Have you read this book? It is okay to come out of the closet. What did you think about it?
